I have to be honest, I didn't post last week because I was frustrated and discouraged and since this blog is supposed to serve the purpose of being a place of encouragement I wasn't sure how to express how I saw God in the middle of it all and be encouraging at the same time! I hope that now that I have had some time to reflect I can do that!
This past week I was frustrated with quite a few things; myself because I overbooked myself, my kids because they fought a lot, my husband's business, and most of all seeing the potential in people that I've lovingly invested in and then seeing them completely give up and give in to bad choices. This last frustration has had my attention for a few days. Thinking about it has saddened me and caused me to wonder if it's worth it anymore?
Have you ever prayed hard for someone or a family for a whole year, opened your home to them, taken whatever opportunity God gave you to love them well and point them toward Him? Seen them move in God's direction and seek Him for themselves? Watched family relationships begin to be restored? And then in one week see it all unravel as the person slips back into thinking they can do it on their own without God? I have and it breaks my heart to see the potential and have it gone. So where I saw God this week was in the question, are people worth the investment? It was as if He was asking me, would you do it again? I am ashamed to say I didn't answer yes right away. It took me a few days to wrap my mind around what He was asking me. But I sit here today and say yes because I did it out of obedience and love for God and He is always worth it!
People are worth the investment even if loving them well means getting hurt when you see them ruin their lives with bad decisions. Here's the thing, as I rewind the tape of my interactions with them I see many moments of being able to share God's love and even if they ultimately want nothing more to do with Him, at least they got a glimpse, a taste, of what could be. And I hope that maybe someday they will change their minds and remember that taste of what could be. Perhaps I was there to plant a seed or water one and may never see the harvest. I need to learn to be ok with that because it means that someone else hopefully will have the joy of helping with the harvest.
I don't know who needs to hear this today, but you know who you are. Continue to love others well and invest in them wherever God leads you and be content and thankful to serve Him this way even if you don't see the joy of the harvest. As it says in John 4:36-37 "Already he who reaps is receiving wages and it is gathering fruit for life eternal;so that he who sows and he who reaps may rejoice together. For in this case the saying is true, 'One sows and another reaps'".
How about you? Where have you seen God in your frustrations?