Wednesday, July 28, 2010

It's Been A While...

Hello to anyone who still actually reads my blog! I would be surprised if anyone still does anymore especially since it's been a few weeks since I posted anything. But just in case, here I am. So why has it been so long???

I have been so busy that haven't sat still long enough to reflect on how I see God in each day. Sad but true. It's not that I don't spend time with Him, I do every morning. It's just that I have been packing too much into each day leaving no room for reflection or enjoyment of living. I'm sure you know what I mean, we all do it. Our "to do" lists never end and we don't always know how to say "no" to people, sometimes we get in a very productive "let's get it done" mode. And if you are like me then it doesn't stop until God gets your attention or you get so worn out that you crash and burn!

A few nights ago we had a special friend over for dinner and it was so hot inside that we went out on the patio where there was a breeze. He is the kind of friend that you don't have awkward silence with and you don't feel like you have to make tons of noisy conversation. So we sat and enjoyed the breeze, the children playing, the quiet neighborhood. It was the first time in weeks that I sat still physically and mentally for any length of time. I saw God in the quiet this week. He reminded me to be still. How about you?

Friday, July 9, 2010

A Year Long Question Answered...

For the past year I have been asking God what loving a particular person in my life looks like. We all have those people in our lives that are not easy to show love too, it's not that we don't feel love for them. Sometimes it is a feeling sometimes it is a choice. I have been at the place where I have needed to deliberately choose to love and have been at a loss for what that looks like. Why? Because I had shown love to this person in the ways I knew best for over a decade now. But each time I did it was rejected in one way or another.

This week I saw God in an answer to my year long question of "God can you please show me what loving this person looks like?" The answer was to go where I didn't want to go, listen to what I didn't want to listen to, be in a physical environment that was uncomfortable, and keep my mouth shut or walk away when I wanted to retaliate. It wasn't easy. But it made for a peaceful week and a positive response from the person I needed to show love to.

God's grace was sufficient to see me through and I learned a valuable lesson in the process. The one word answer to my year long question posed to God was "sacrifice".